Dear joan de Tabitha's Secret

Dear joan, i've almost forgotten
the pane in the window, the blue dress in the doorway
dear joan, help me remember
the face i forget, and the traps that i've sprung
I guess i've grown tired, it's just what's expected of me
to tear your heart, from the inside to the outside
you know i was wired, i just couldn't help it
the hundred thousand times i hurt you
Chorus:
dear joan i wanted to say, i'm sorry for the screaming last night, and the nights before
i've wanted more from this than anything i've ever known, dear joan
Dear joan, your face has a brightness
that i've never seen, in the years that i've known you
dear joan, i'd pick up the pieces
but some scattered too far, they flew when i kicked them
I know you believed when i said it was over
you stood by me patiently, waiting and brooding
so deeply in love, with every face that i've shown
Repeat chorus
Once i forget, twice i'm a fool
three times i wrap my hands around your neck
while your sleeping
so quietly sleeping
sleeping and dreaming
Dear joan, don't walk out the doorway
because if you did, i believe i could honestly kill you
Repeat chorus x2